At the moment, I am trying very hard not to be stressed, not be anxious, not to worry about anything and everything and most of all not to be depressed.
Im scared with work, cos as of tomorrow our new GM starts and i will taking over administration duties for all of Auckland but im terrified that i will screw it up.
I dont know where they order the stationery from? and how often? what if i mess it up?!
I'm trying to just think - it will all be ok.
but what if its not.
I keep telling myself and everyone else who asks how i am... that im doing ok. that im not actually depressed.
But what if its just the eating disorder thats masking it. what if my ed is keeping me happy cos im nt eating, cos ive lost some weight. <- i dont even know if thats possible or not!
i dunno.
guess i just have to keep trying!
Im scared with work, cos as of tomorrow our new GM starts and i will taking over administration duties for all of Auckland but im terrified that i will screw it up.
I dont know where they order the stationery from? and how often? what if i mess it up?!
I'm trying to just think - it will all be ok.
but what if its not.
I keep telling myself and everyone else who asks how i am... that im doing ok. that im not actually depressed.
But what if its just the eating disorder thats masking it. what if my ed is keeping me happy cos im nt eating, cos ive lost some weight. <- i dont even know if thats possible or not!
i dunno.
guess i just have to keep trying!
1 comment:
sometimes that's all you can do is keep trying.. sometimes it feels like you get nowhere, but you have to keep trying!
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