What A Week!

Weeks been pretty emotional and hard to be honest... 

I had a colposcopy appoint on tues (for my abnormal smear)- they had to take a biopsy cos cells abnormal and waiting to find out results of that - 50/50 chance of cervical cancer :/

Tuesday night i hung out with my mate Matt, who borrowed some money and now i can't get a hold of him. Didn't get any sleep!

Wednesday I worked 6 hours - then went out with friends, made money selling and got home bout 5am - for 3 hours sleep

Thursday I had a meeting at REDS (regional eating disorder service) it was an hour and half long and they asked me all sorts of questions about my thoughts around eating, weight, everything. Have an appoint with another dr on tues next week for a full medical to make sure physically I'm not in any danger. :/

Then the 3 people from REDS (psychiatrist and ot from thurs and dr from tues) meet with my old team (psychologist, psychiatrist and key worker) to discuss me and what I need. 

Thursday night i went to my cousins house with mates, she got so drunk and was being really annoying and silly and then was hitting me which was painful (she has since apologised) I got home about 4.30am for about 2.5 hours sleep just in time for another day at work on friday

Friday -I went to my uncles funeral. There was a lot of laughter which was nice but it was still so sad. He passed on Sunday so suddenly from a heart attack. Was my mums eldest brother and 1st brother to pass away. 

Then I was going to have quiet night and in some ways I kinda did. Yet somehow it was 5am and I was not asleep. Was chilling at mine with a friend, did some d*ugs and slept from 7am-11am

and now it's saturday - i went to lunch with family and it was ok -ate some seafood but felt so full and as i was leaving mums husband said to me - "make sure you keep it in you" i was like WTF and he tried to make me pinky promise not to bring it back up!
way to ruin lunch

I don't think i am doing anything tonight - sat night in, house to myself and sleep!
I am feeling so ill and tired and grumpy. I wish i had it in me to go out cos i need to sell some stuff but oh well.... CBA