Argh am having such a shitty time at home. My friend Anna is staying (has been here for 10 days) and was supposed to stay for another 10 but today my flat mate told me that i have to tell her to leave cos she is always in the way and doesnt do anything...
he said that everyone in the flat has talked about it...
I suggested last week that everyone in the flat sit down and talk about it - as a house, but no one wanted to do that. then today he said they have all talked about it.
Its like - they all ganged up on me and now my mate is finding somewhere else to stay cos they dont want her here.
and they all know that i am looking for a new flat so no one is speaking to me and steve (the useless guy) is avoiding me and walks outta the room when i come in!
Its so pathetic! and its frustrating me. cos i pay rent too so i should have some say in it, they should have spoken to me about their frustrations or annoyances they have with my mate, no go behind my back and moan to each other!!
Cut on saturday night again.
Re opened an old wound. I was drunk and felt lonley and down.
Earlier in the evening, Anna was saying how she had lost 2 kgs (she is quite big - size 14/16) and i said how i want to lose some weight and she said that i look much better with the 3 kgs i gained. how my face looks fuller and brighter and how i jus look much healthier now!
So all night all i was thinking about was my fat face!!
So thats why i cut! I have lost 1 of the 3 kgs... and will do some more exercise this week. im gonna be back under 50kgs (aiming for 48kgs) by the work xmas party - im not going to be the fat faced ugly little girl!!
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