I AM OK

I am OK, I think.
At the moment, I am eating - what I call normal.
Breakfast - a shake.
Lunch - crackers and marmite or a salad, or some fruit and yoghurt, or a bowl of cereal and yoghurt
Snack -  beans or apple
Dinner - vegies or thai food or salad or sushi
I have also eaten crisps A LOT recently. They are my weakness, always have been, always will be.

So that for me is OK.

I haven't had strong urges to self harm this weekend. I did on Friday but i was too busy chatting to Charley and then used the ice technique to distract that the urge wasn't around for long at all.

I haven't been obsessively exercising or weighing myself 3 times a day.
My weight is up at 52kgs (114lbs)

I went and partied last night and drank alcohol and felt ok. I even laughed and had fun.
I do feel guilty A LOT - esp with the weight gain and lack of exercise and also when i go out and have fun, i feel extremely guilty but i am desperately trying to keep myself together and just focus on what is going right - and that is that I have NOT self harmed in like 3 weeks (think it's that long)