Purging

So i have gotten into a cycle of purging after dinner.
I got away with it a few days ago.. i ate a roast dinner and felt disgusting so that little voice inside my head saying you can slip upstairs they are talking they wont even hear you.. so i did.
Althought i felt kinda guilty for doing it.. i also felt good in some strange way.
I felt like i was on a high cos i was back in control and empty!

I have done it 4 nights in a row. I get a massive headache afterwards but i feel good!!

I know its wrong but it feels so right!!