PURGED!

So i went out for dinner tonight with a friend, was really nervous cos lately my dinners have been rice crackers or soup or tea or something light-so i was scared!
we had tapas so shared the food - i didnt eat as much as her! But i ate and felt so ful
even had some desert - fruit dipped in warm choc! OMG was so yummy!
but instantly felt sick and disgusted so went to the bathroom
- Didnt even need to put my fingers down my throat and i was vomiting!!!
felt so good to be emptying myself of all that disgusting shit!
Then really wanted to jus get home so i could finish it off-but got home and someone was in the bath!!
So digusting old me, was sick in a plastic bag then quickly put in the bin outside!!

Dunno if i feel better or worse!! feel a little bit ashamed of my behaviour - but my tummy is almost empty so hey !! :/