So am sitting here and all i can smell is chocolate pudding that kelly and vaughan are eating! It smells so good. But i know if i had one i would jus sit here and stare at it.
I am on anti depressants now- to try and lift my mood. I took the prescribed dose the first night but i felt too sick so have cut the dose in half for now.
I dont think they have really taken affect yet.
Booked a trip to Amsterdam with my mate. Something to look forward to :)
Sometimes living here i feel like i am stuck in this anorexia - where as at work, no one knows about it, So when i eat a packet of crisps i dont feel like im being watched. I dunno. its werid.
I love living here and kelly is great but she doesnt understand this. Shes trying but sometimes its jus not enough.
If i dont eat breakfast she will say something like "oh your not eating again i see" and i feel bad.
Sometimes i jus want her to leave me alone and let me do what i want!!
Then sometimes im glad she comes into my room and chats to me.
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