Spiral

Why do things have to slowly spiral out of control. i thought things were going good. i have a new job and a new house... and slowly making friends.

but then christie stops talking to me cos she going through a tough time and cant bear to talk to her best mate, then mum moves in with her partner who i dislike cos he treated me like i was 10 years old, then i see mums friend who tells me im looking happy and healthy (fat and plump) and after all this i still stuff my face with food. How disgusting am i!!
oh and my nanas cancer (osephogus cancer) cannot be helped and her breast cancer has returned and im not there to support her or mum! What kind of person does that make me!?

i cant write any more i am too upset.