I went downstairs the same day and tried to explain and kelly had said she was angry cos i had re acted that way and that she only wants to support me and feels like it gets thrown back in my face. And she said i need to grow up and take control of my life.
So i have an apointment on Tuesday to see a counsellor - at 10am.
I am so incredibly scared.
My sister asked what i am affraid of and i said i wasnt sure, She then said are you affraid of being normal.
And i guess i kinda am. Although i hate this illness i also feel safe with it. I have it protecting me, i can fall back on it when things are going bad. And although i hate having the voice in my head - i kinda like it. I can depend on it to be honest (although i know realise its not really the truth)
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