Saturday night and today!

So last night I went out to a karaoke bar with my mate. Kelly (who offered) dropped me down in town at 6pm and i got a txt from Vaughan at 7.30 saying dinner was at 8pm and to let kel know if i was gonna be home. It was a nice txt. so i txt kelly and said i would either get something out or when i got home. She jus txt back OK.
Then as i was walking home i was thinking bout having some toast and i got in and was sitting on the couch (10.30pm) and I said to kel "i spent no money tonight how good was that" and she then said "so guess you havent had dinner then?" i said no. and she goes "oh what a suprise!"
I just went to bed. I couldnt go into the kitchen after that and make my toast cos it would seem like i was only doing it cos she had said that.
I had just had such a good night out and felt so crappy! I had every intention on having some toast. I didnt say that to get a comment like that from her. Its like she is just waiting for me to screw up and doesnt believe i can do it.

I then got up this morning and she was being all weird with me. I went downstairs and she was filling up the sink to do the dishes and i said i can do those, she said no its fine. So i went back upstairs then came down bout ten minutes later and said is there anything you want me to do. She said NO
Then about 10 mins later she asked Vaughan to do the vacumming?? And he had jus cleaned the loo's.. Why didnt she say to me to do the vacumming? I went for an hours walk and had a cry cos felt so useless. And came home and they are still doing cleaning. Why didnt she want my help?
She will prob complain later that i have done nothing all day!?

I honestly sometimes cant wait to move to London. I sometimes feel like im trapped. Like they are my parents and i need to ask their permission to go out or whatever. I feel like i need to move to london to get some indepencey and do my own thing. Without having to think about whether i be home for dinner or having to be quiet when i do get home.
I dont need people watching my every move and commenting on whether i do or dont eat. It doesnt help me at all. Just makes me feel like a big fat failure!!