so last night at my friends flat warming (my best friend that is) her ex boyfriend from years ago was there cos they have recently become friends again.
When they were together I was attracted to him but NEVER once admitted it to ANYONE!!
I got over it cos they were together and i told myself that it was so wrong and that it could never happen
Last night Gus & I were talking and he admitted to me that he was/is attracted to me and always has been but never knew what to do with that feeling.
My friend told him that he was to stay away from me cos i am her best friend and she told me that nothing could ever happen between me and him cos its too weird for her.
She told me she can see that spark of something between us but its not right.
My cousin then went and reminded my friend that what she has told us is VERY hypocritical as she has done the exact same thing with the guy she is dating (long story but basically she dumped her bf of 2 1/2 years and is now dating a guy in the same circle of friends)
so after the conversation between my cousin and my friend my friend then told me that if i want to date Gus I can cos who is she to stand in the way of something that has the potential to be amazing.
Back track to an earlier conversation - this keeps playing on my mind -
Gus and I were chatting (this is before he admitted he has feelings for me) we were talking about his and my friends relationship and he said that I WAS THE BIGGEST PROBLEM
I was always around, i was always there and that's it.
They started dating towards the end of 2006, right when my parents separated and then I was raped and yes I admit I leaned on my friends A LOT at that point and my friend was my main friend but I never realized i was the biggest problem for them
So here I am now - not knowing what to do, what will happen next and if anything will happen.
I don't know what to do about the whole situation - it feels like a mess but I like this guy and for me to like someone and actually feel comfortable with a guy is a very very rare thing... which is why I am hoping he does call and it does all work out for the best?!
He has my number - so I guess the ball is in his court.
When they were together I was attracted to him but NEVER once admitted it to ANYONE!!
I got over it cos they were together and i told myself that it was so wrong and that it could never happen
Last night Gus & I were talking and he admitted to me that he was/is attracted to me and always has been but never knew what to do with that feeling.
My friend told him that he was to stay away from me cos i am her best friend and she told me that nothing could ever happen between me and him cos its too weird for her.
She told me she can see that spark of something between us but its not right.
My cousin then went and reminded my friend that what she has told us is VERY hypocritical as she has done the exact same thing with the guy she is dating (long story but basically she dumped her bf of 2 1/2 years and is now dating a guy in the same circle of friends)
so after the conversation between my cousin and my friend my friend then told me that if i want to date Gus I can cos who is she to stand in the way of something that has the potential to be amazing.
Back track to an earlier conversation - this keeps playing on my mind -
Gus and I were chatting (this is before he admitted he has feelings for me) we were talking about his and my friends relationship and he said that I WAS THE BIGGEST PROBLEM
I was always around, i was always there and that's it.
They started dating towards the end of 2006, right when my parents separated and then I was raped and yes I admit I leaned on my friends A LOT at that point and my friend was my main friend but I never realized i was the biggest problem for them
So here I am now - not knowing what to do, what will happen next and if anything will happen.
I don't know what to do about the whole situation - it feels like a mess but I like this guy and for me to like someone and actually feel comfortable with a guy is a very very rare thing... which is why I am hoping he does call and it does all work out for the best?!
He has my number - so I guess the ball is in his court.
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