Hush you

It's quiet but very loud. Everything feels as though it's moving in the opposite direction.
I am crying but hyper at the same time. Thinking super fast like my mind is stuck on super fast forward, but I'm not sure what I'm even thinking. I'm also moving in slow motion though. But how can this be? Doesn't one contradict the other. Can I really be moving super fast in slow motion?!
Sshhhh quiet now loud head, the buzzing, loud humming and noises need to stop. I must sleep so I can dream of good and being on diets and being thin so I can wake up fatter and less good enough than the crumbs of left over dinner on my floor.