Christie

So my other best mate - christie - her younger sister has been diagnosed with bullimia. and yes it is really sad and i cried when i found out, cos i have known this girl for years and she is like my younger sister too and to know that she is feeling like me makes me cry!!
but the thing is... christie always says to me, how skinny ellie is and how she looks so sick . and how she runs to the bathroom after her meal and chrisite has realised how sick she is cos she is so thin and what not

i kinda feel like she doesnt believe that i am sick? or that i am suffering to?
its like cos i dont broadcast what i do i am not as sick as her sister?

And it is pushing my eating disorder further into trouble.

I kinda feel i have to prove i am sick too - even though i know i how thin i am and what i do etc.

what the hell am i thinking here? am i overreacting and jus being selfish!???