Twitter

So if anyone is interested im now on Twitter... not sure how much i will use it cos when i write things i like it to be long not just 180 characters or whatever it is.

I found out yesterday that i have a new job! Such a relief.

I start on Monday! Hopefully it will keep me busy and distracted so i dont eat too much!

Its weird cos at the moment, i dont feel like i am struggling like i used too to put food in my mouth, im now jus struggling with my thoughts, endlessly consumed with thoughts on food, calorie intake, fat content, weight gain, weight loss, how much exercise, how many calories burnt. Its driving me insane.
At least when i wasnt eating i was getting somewhere now im jus thinking all these thoughts but doing nothing about it!

I need to eat less exercise more. simple.. right?
Where is my motivation - apart from this dying urge to be thin which i cry about daily! I am such a lazy fat anorexic. im so sorry and ashamed to even label myself one any more.

I need a buddy. I need someone who can run with me... walk with me... keep me on track... lose weight with me.. fast with me... eat with me when i have to!

Why cant i find someone who wants to do that with me!