So today i went to the mall with my mum and step sister - we were bra shopping, mum convinced me to let the lady measure me and make sure the bras fitted ok, so i let her come in with her measuring tape and watched her as she looked at my body and sized me up and felt her cold hands as she checked the bra fitting....
she then said to me - "have you lost weight recently" and i replied "possibly"
she came back with another bra and then said "i think you've lost too much weight and dont think you should lose any more" she was being lovely and light hearted about it, not saying it in a mean way....
and i sorta just giggled nervously and said "yeah guess so"
But as soon as she left the changing room i just stood there and stared at my bare upper body with my new bra on (it has some padding and a bit of push up in it cos the lady said it looks much better than the one i chose cos it gives me some boobs) I was desperately trying to see the skinny person she said i was but all i could see was the fat the covers my arms and rolls down onto my tummy and over my hips and into my jeans.
Mum came into the change room and i could almost hear her thoughts.... the look on her face told me i have lost weight, and im sure she couldnt wait for me to put my clothes back on so she didnt have to see my body!
It was a very awkward and weird situation.
But it made me feel good!!
Someone tells me ive lost too much weight and i feel happy?! Ana you are realy living inside my head arent you!!!
Im so anxious and nervous all the time. At the mall, i had to go outside cos there were too many people and i felt like they were all watching me.
Im having a very odd day! Im so lost in my own thoughts and have been tuning out of conversations cos of the thoughts and conversations going on inside my head!!
she then said to me - "have you lost weight recently" and i replied "possibly"
she came back with another bra and then said "i think you've lost too much weight and dont think you should lose any more" she was being lovely and light hearted about it, not saying it in a mean way....
and i sorta just giggled nervously and said "yeah guess so"
But as soon as she left the changing room i just stood there and stared at my bare upper body with my new bra on (it has some padding and a bit of push up in it cos the lady said it looks much better than the one i chose cos it gives me some boobs) I was desperately trying to see the skinny person she said i was but all i could see was the fat the covers my arms and rolls down onto my tummy and over my hips and into my jeans.
Mum came into the change room and i could almost hear her thoughts.... the look on her face told me i have lost weight, and im sure she couldnt wait for me to put my clothes back on so she didnt have to see my body!
It was a very awkward and weird situation.
But it made me feel good!!
Someone tells me ive lost too much weight and i feel happy?! Ana you are realy living inside my head arent you!!!
Im so anxious and nervous all the time. At the mall, i had to go outside cos there were too many people and i felt like they were all watching me.
Im having a very odd day! Im so lost in my own thoughts and have been tuning out of conversations cos of the thoughts and conversations going on inside my head!!
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