So i think im starting to like her and be honest with her, this morning in my appointment i managed to actually tell her the truth about whats been happening in the last few weeks.
She doesnt want to change me until i am ready to change - which is good
She said that the anorexia has a strong grip over me now and its the one making me feel good and feel like im ok.
Its controlling my thoughts and she said i have gone downhill since last time i seen her, although my weight is sitll the same :/
I have to see her every week now
I just feel confused at the mo!!
Cos apart of me is thinking she is right and ana is in control and she is winning and making me unhealthy and making me isolate from friends but then the other part of me is thinking.. its my body and i am in control of it, ana is just on the outskirts and helping me feel in control and feel sane. Ana is the good thing in my life (even though the other part of me is screaming no she is killing you) ana is making me happy and helping me lose weight and stay in control.
Maree is making me confused and stirring up the fight in me - the fight AGAINST ana but at the same time i dont want to fight cos im not ready to change!!
I DONT KNOW!!
She doesnt want to change me until i am ready to change - which is good
She said that the anorexia has a strong grip over me now and its the one making me feel good and feel like im ok.
Its controlling my thoughts and she said i have gone downhill since last time i seen her, although my weight is sitll the same :/
I have to see her every week now
I just feel confused at the mo!!
Cos apart of me is thinking she is right and ana is in control and she is winning and making me unhealthy and making me isolate from friends but then the other part of me is thinking.. its my body and i am in control of it, ana is just on the outskirts and helping me feel in control and feel sane. Ana is the good thing in my life (even though the other part of me is screaming no she is killing you) ana is making me happy and helping me lose weight and stay in control.
Maree is making me confused and stirring up the fight in me - the fight AGAINST ana but at the same time i dont want to fight cos im not ready to change!!
I DONT KNOW!!
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