Purge

I purged for the second time in 2 days.
Sat night we had eaten dinner (i had 3 chicken wings, some salad and 2 pieces of garlic bread) and was outside with my flat mate, and she said that she was so full she could go and throw up. and something inside of me, just said - you need to go and throw up ! and as i was doing it, slowly.... i heard someone coming up the stairs so stopped.
And then tonight, i had planned on only eating an egg for dinner, but was persuaded by my flat mate to have chinese with her, so i had some noodles (prob bout a palm full) and some vegies and squid (prob bout the same amount) and 4 pork dumplings.
After eating, i just sat there and was consumed with the guilt, of knowing i had only eaten some crackers all day and now i was ruining all that with chinese!!
So i have come upstairs run the shower and purged - not a huge amount but until i was choking a bit on the food stuck in the back of my throat. Then i swallowed some water and jumped around in the bathroom and purged again.... without really trying too.

Im now in bed after doing some starjumps (but then realised i was being noisy) and so did 100 squats and 100 sit ups...

I am starting now! as of now i will lose weight.!! i have too!!
am 56kgs. i wanna be 50kgs by the time i leave london in 10 weeks!!